Monday, April 13, 2009

Yes! I realize I haven't posted anything!

Just wanted to let everybody know that I haven't given up on my quest to journal (or whatever you wanna call it) on the blog. I have just been busy 'busying' myself with other things in order to avoid it!

Thought you needed an explanation though. Hope to have some heart wrenching stuff out soon!


Thursday, April 2, 2009

Big changes ahead!!!

The name of my blog is That's Life... and I have been purposely avoiding anything that pertains to my actual life. I chose the name because my boyfriend was laid off from his job and was at the cigar shoppe talking to a lovely old man who started quoting a Frank Sinatra song. I obviously found out the song and immediately bought the CD for him. (Because I am that good!) Once I heard the song I started to cry. Life happens whether you want it to or not. That's Life. I have been all of these things, plus some. But I will start with these...

I've been a...
puppet-- I have lived my life pretending to be whatever my various puppeteers decide I should be.
pauper-- have had my own "economic stimulus plan" with regards to my finances.
pirate-- I have been convicted of a crime... DWI 2001... thought I could get away with it so I blew anyway...
poet-- I wrote a poem about a pink African Violet my sister gave me.
I love the way you sparkle.
I love the way you shine.
I love the way you're oooh so pink...
just like my behind!
pawn-- to most men I had met...
king-- let's change this to princess... I am Daddy's little princess and I was once Mommy's too (until the age of 14).

Anyway, my therapist has told me to write a journal. I just can't. My hands cramp because I put too much pressure on the pen/pencil. And I hate it when you run out of book and your hand has no place to rest. Also when you are writing on the back side of the page and you are right handed... it just doesn't work!

So, in order to appease my therapist and not freak my mom out I am going to go for a happy medium. I read three blogs this week(one, two, three) that all touched me in some way... I now want to share a section of my life that may touch you in some way. I have had a blessed life! I have also struggled with depression for most of it. I have seen things that should pull me right out of it and done things that will drag me back into it. I hope to learn from myself through this and maybe help someone along the way.

Please stick with me through this journey. I am scared! I don't know what will come of this... but I hope it is a ton!

Thank you!

P.S. and Billy... you heard him about July... you better get on it!